2019 taught me a lot about myself. It was both a rough year but also an extremely rewarding one. I took risk, I bet on myself, I forgot who I was, I forgot my priorities, I healed, I grew, I learned, and I trusted.
I set goals and I crushed them! I set goals and I fell extremely short, I mean not even close. But I kept going, I persisted. I felt a sort of heaviness on my shoulders and could barely lift my body out of bed on some days. Despite the heaviness I got up every single day and I persisted. I saw my world begin to crumble and I held on to each rubble and pieced it all back. It wasn’t the same but it was more beautiful because I persisted.
2019 showed me exactly who I am. 2019 showed that I am the woman that I have always wanted to be, the woman whom I have always looked up to. She doesn’t have it all and she doesn’t need to. She isn’t always happy, she gets upset at the smallest thing, she’s imperfect, but she persist. Even when she desperately wants to give-up, she doesn’t. She makes mistakes and she learns from them.
2019 I acknowledged my faults. I accepted being wrong and found glory in that.
2019 I learned that I set high expectations for myself. I set large goals. I allow everyone else to be imperfect except for myself. What I learned is that I truly needed to start extending myself some grace. To start allowing myself to be imperfect and to be a person.
I may not always feel like a tiger, but I know exactly who I am.
Hello 2020, I am ready.
She will persist.
— Esquire in Love